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when it all becomes so very heavy and I could not back out of it,,,, all the decisions I have taken was just how I was going to live,,, this is not the end .. not yet,, still a long and distant journey,, all so shocking when something shook my life with such shocking news and I can not accept,, when I get used to something that I've lived, how many things are suddenly absent without advance notice .... when I like to go my own way, and there are others who disturb it so disturbing ... Can I just live my life alone? I love life and may be very different from the others .... but why are we going to be different and not normal when we choose the way and have a different life with another person? we are not free to choose and live our own natural way? but there is something that is set and we have to follow the rules .... should??? yaaaa it's a necessity that does not make me look so good with my own life .... I want to live my own, although it is different ...... yaaaa because I'm different and not the same ... only that........ if when I do not like it a must? and I was not really find anything that I'm looking for ... due to limitations of the